i only had one beside me..

it funny to say...

love is still flowing my way..

i stop and think..

why this must be..

then i drop to my knees...

and cry out...please don't take me away from this please.

like they says. once you have it once. you never have it again..

i love how we talk and never argue..

hours has past..days has gone by...

but the period time i had you in my life..

could of been ever lasting..

i lost you but found you at the same time.

i hurt and you hurt.

tears and anger came ..

but by the end i made a friend and a lover..

but now it has end.

i lost a lover

but grew a solid friend....thank you....D.M.S

yesterday..on my little rock

OK..so i was looking at my blog yesterday and on YouTube.com for first time..some reason I'm not a YouTube fan i hate that shit with everything i love. but i saw a friend trying to promote his YouTube..and i was crazy ass bored.. so i was be nosey and check it out...so i seen hella videos and i guess it was him singing..so had hella of them and it was one that had catch my eye...the song was called

i need you now

well= i believe thats the name

well anyway click to it and all i know he just start blowing

words were flow..sound was poppin...had me take another

look who it was..i was damn

my lil homie can really blow.

=)

i will

say he had me shock

on dumb mode for a minute

and had me thinking about going to

chruch this sunday.. can you say a amen..

im not even playing....

if you dont believe me?

well i want you to go to

Youtube.com/ajosiah

he maybe ugly, maybe

look slow.but you need

to look him up forreal

im all grown up...damn what a weekend

reality hit me hard and i love it for some reason..

reality put me in check and me swallow what i was going to

get in to... i mean everything i did this weekend was meant to be....









0. I finally went to the CASINO and making it rain..shit and didn't win a damn thing..hahaha..

thinking i was going to win some big bucks....while my god father was getting a grip of cash like it ain't shit..just winning hella much. i was like ain't that about a bitch... and then he loss it all i was like damn ..i least pull out when i won the third 200 bucks i got....

1. Rollin with the GREEKs up lay back... click was kool....on a Saturday night.....i was feeling myself good...(means having a good time dumb dumb...y'all nasty).... but yeah with my Kendra and Alica and others..went to jaz get together...while we got her fat butt MC-D's and almost shot at.....crazy shit... got to her little get together...and being nosey since her down stair neigbors were fighting..it was pretty funny.....but yeah fell asleep when the together die down..was hella tired and finally got up and got home like 3a.m..then hit the myspace and was getting active with ppl.hahaha what a f&%King loner....for real! getting active on myspace ..who does that..i guess my dumb butt does...then after made love to sheets and made out to my sexy pillow....LOLL......

2. JUST GOT OUT a RELATIONSHIP!!!! 031509 yeah I'm good...actually it was one of the best breaks up's i every had...because it wasn't just a solo thang it was couple thing...maybe because we thought alike or some shit..but we both got the hint....but we good friends..and i cant be mad at it...love comes and go..but i believe that was lush and go..no disrespect but if you can let someone go so fast and don't feel bad or hurt off it..it lush.....shit i realize i don't need to be in a relationship to make me happy... all i need is friends...not them types of friends you hang with..i mean cutty buddy hahaha..yeah right me... me sharing my goods to just anyone ha ha..that would be the day...but yeah shout out to my x babe we had good times...and i don't have any regrets at all just a big thank you for opening up my mind of different things that i thought i would never experience ever again... =' )...but yeah i been crushin on someone for a bit..but i just want to do me for a min and if they have interest in me.. well damn let get interested in each other but very slowly for the time begin... you feel..p.s thanks for the good weekend...and your still good with my bro..hahaha..you bro-in-law









3. CRUSHin on you makes me smile. but I'm get CRUSH from other.. yeah i got a crush...it been for a while a long ass while since i had a crush but i had this crush before my last relationship...but like i said on number 2 at the end of the paragraph..i want to take it slow before anything pops off...but yeah i have someone thats is crushin on me that i never thought i would be interest to..but yeah it crazy ..that's why I'm crazy..I'm not going to get in details..just say that how it goes for now..and if stuff pops off...y'all get a sneak peep...ewww yall nasty but yall want to know i bet..hehehe..but naw i dont get down with the rated -X like that but yeah I'm just chillin and seeing whats going to happen..







4. SCHOOL..what a MONDAY031609..



OK yall was on the phone till 3 a.m something..knowing my ass need to hit the sheet and make love to the pillow and call it a night long time ago..but the convo got juicey and you know when it good..its good...but yeah got up at 6 something... really suppose to be up at 5a.m but knowing damn well its my fault.....while my father coming in my room every 5seconds to wake my tried out butt up and hit the hot water...but couldn't even do it...because my dreams was popping and my sleep was knockin so yeah..but once i got my tail up..i already knew i was going to be late for school the time i was looking at on my sidekick Lx..was all bad.....but it was one of them Monday's you say ooo F%*King well and be thankful for waking up another day......but today i realize i had a smile on my face and full of words to say.. first thing i said to my self damn im tired but its a beautiful day.......havent stop smiling after that.....